this year i learned, in a nutshell, of weakness.
not just any weakness. my achilles' heel. my waterloo.
it's weird. it's like a different person, but i know it's me.
like a dream. or nightmare.
i learned of strength. but i did not learn it. i realized that strength is really a truth. not just a mere word.
i learned of commitment, of conviction, of accountability and responsibility.. and my apparent lack of all these traits.
i remember vividly. i was hopeful for 2011. turns out, a lot of things did happen. not the good kind, unfortunately.
i may in fact, be really losing it. what the hell is wrong with me?!
hayy.
god, i hope not. while i'm sane, i still hope for the better.
my christmas wish is, therefore, to be able to work through my weakness. for courage. for strength. for conviction to do what is right. for accountability.
whew. to better things! happy holidays!
